My dear friend,
It will get better.
“I will bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives, and release them from darkness. I will comfort all who mourn, and clothe them in praise instead of despair. The Lord will plant them as oaks of righteousness. And they will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities, that have been devastated for generations.” (Isaiah 61)
Whatever hurt you are holding on to, all the pieces of your broken heart, all that pain you feel.
Let it go, let God take them, He will restore you.
Please never lose hope.